Not a day
goes by where you're not constantly on my mind. Not a day goes by where I
don't wonder about you. Not a day goes by where I don't wish I've done
things differently. I should have stayed with you when you asked me
to. I should have asked you to stay with me when you told me to.
Pride is such a foolish thing. I wanted to prove myself to the
world. I wanted to prove myself to all the people who didn't
matter. I got so lost in big dreams that I missed out on you. Caught
up by the rules this world has made. I am paying the price for my choices
every day. I have to live with me. Now time is my enemy.
Nothing I can do about the past. My future seems dull right now.
None of the pretty things matter if I can't share them with you. There
are so many unanswered questions between us. I know if I told you
everything it might kill you. I know it would surely kill me to see the
look in your eyes when you know everything about me. I am not at all as
perfect as you made me out to be. Thinking you’ve been realizing
that since I last saw you. I never did deserve you...
