The End

This is where I came to talk to you.  This was written for you and only for you.  This was my personal space where nobody knew me.  This was where I could dream and share my memories of you.  I had no intention of ever sending this to you, but now I have nothing to lose.  I know you have waited forever to hear some of what is written here and I know that some of this you never wanted to hear.  At the end this is who I am and you've helped to construct this even if you didn't understand.  I know you said what hurts me hurts you too and I've always tried to protect you.  Living this way was my choice, but I never chose to fall in love with you.  It just happened.  I'm sorry if I've hurt you, it's no justification but you've hurt me all the same.  If I could have done things differently, I would.  Going round in circles I always end up back at you.  How you feel about me now is unknown to me.  It might be clear to you, but I might be too caught up emotionally to be objective and see what's been right in front of me all along.  I just hope someday all the what if's and should have's would come together and make sense to both you and me.  Thank you for being my best friend, my guardian angel, my soul mate.  I wish you all the finest and I hope we would someday be stronger than everything that has happened. I have loved you all along even when I didn't recognize it.  Please don't ever doubt that.

Yours sincerely forever